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CHAPTER 51. THE BEGINNING OF A LONGER JOURNEY
It was yet early in the morning of the following day, when, as I was walking in my garden with my aunt (who took little other exercise now, being so much in attendance on my dear Dora), I was told that Mr. Peggotty desired to speak with me. He came into the garden to meet me half-way, on my going towards the gate; and bared his head, as it was always his custom to do when he saw my aunt, for whom he had a high respect. I had been telling her all that had happened overnight. Without saying a word, she walked up with a cordial face, shook hands with him, and patted him on the arm. It was so expressively done, that she had no need to say a word. Mr. Peggotty understood her quite as well as if she had said a thousand.
âIâll go in now, Trot,â said my aunt, âand look after Little Blossom, who will be getting up presently.â
âNot along of my being heer, maâam, I hope?â said Mr. Peggotty. âUnless my wits is gone a bahdâs neezingââby which Mr. Peggotty meant to say, birdâs-nestingââthis morning, âtis along of me as youâre a-going to quit us?â
âYou have something to say, my good friend,â returned my aunt, âand will do better without me.â
âBy your leave, maâam,â returned Mr. Peggotty, âI should take it kind, pervising you doenât mind my clicketten, if youâd bide heer.â
âWould you?â said my aunt, with short good-nature. âThen I am sure I will!â
So, she drew her arm through Mr. Peggottyâs, and walked with him to a leafy little summer-house there was at the bottom of the garden, where she sat down on a bench, and I beside her. There was a seat for Mr. Peggotty too, but he preferred to stand, leaning his hand on the small rustic table. As he stood, looking at his cap for a little while before beginning to speak, I could not help observing what power and force of character his sinewy hand expressed, and what a good and trusty companion it was to his honest brow and iron-grey hair.
âI took my dear child away last night,â Mr. Peggotty began, as he raised his eyes to ours, âto my lodging, wheer I have a long time been expecting of her and preparing fur her. It was hours afore she knowed me right; and when she did, she kneeled down at my feet, and kiender said to me, as if it was her prayers, how it all come to be. You may believe me, when I heerd her voice, as I had heerd at home so playfulâand see her humbled, as it might be in the dust our Saviour wrote in with his blessed handâI felt a wownd go to my âart, in the midst of all its thankfulness.â
He drew his sleeve across his face, without any pretence of concealing why; and then cleared his voice.
âIt warnât for long as I felt that; for she was found. I had onây to think as she was found, and it was gone. I doenât know why I do so much as mention of it now, Iâm sure. I didnât have it in my mind a minute ago, to say a word about myself; but it come up so natâral, that I yielded to it afore I was aweer.â
âYou are a self-denying soul,â said my aunt, âand will have your reward.â
Mr. Peggotty, with the shadows of the leaves playing athwart his face, made a surprised inclination of the head towards my aunt, as an acknowledgement of her good opinion; then took up the thread he had relinquished.
âWhen my Emâly took flight,â he said, in stern wrath for the moment, âfrom the house wheer she was made a prisoner by that theer spotted snake as Masâr Davy see,âand his storyâs trew, and may GOD confound him!âshe took flight in the night. It was a dark night, with a many stars a-shining. She was wild. She ran along the sea beach, believing the old boat was theer; and calling out to us to turn away our faces, for she was a-coming by. She heerd herself a-crying out, like as if it was another person; and cut herself on them sharp-pinted stones and rocks, and felt it no more than if she had been rock herself. Ever so fur she run, and there was fire afore her eyes, and roarings in her ears. Of a suddenâor so she thowt, you unnerstandâthe day broke, wet and windy, and she was lying bâlow a heap of stone upon the shore, and a woman was a-speaking to her, saying, in the language of that country, what was it as had gone so much amiss?â
He saw everything he related. It passed before him, as he spoke, so vividly, that, in the intensity of his earnestness, he presented what he described to me, with greater distinctness than I can express. I can hardly believe, writing now long afterwards, but that I was actually present in these scenes; they are impressed upon me with such an astonishing air of fidelity.
âAs Emâlyâs eyesâwhich was heavyâsee this woman better,â Mr. Peggotty went on, âshe knowâd as she was one of them as she had often talked to on the beach. Fur, though she had run (as I have said) ever so fur in the night, she had oftentimes wandered long ways, partly afoot, partly in boats and carriages, and knowâd all that country, âlong the coast, miles and miles. She hadnât no children of her own, this woman, being a young wife; but she was a-looking to have one afore long. And may my prayers go up to Heaven that âtwill be a happiness to her, and a comfort, and a honour, all her life! May it love her and be dootiful to her, in her old age; helpful of her at the last; a Angel to her heer, and heerafter!â
âAmen!â said my aunt.
âShe had been summat timorous and down,â said Mr. Peggotty, âand had sat, at first, a little way off, at her spinning, or such work as it was, when Emâly talked to the children. But Emâly had took notice of her, and had gone and spoke to her; and as the young woman was partial to the children herself, they had soon made friends. Sermuchser, that when Emâly went that way, she always giv Emâly flowers. This was her as now asked what it was that had gone so much amiss. Emâly told her, and sheâtook her home. She did indeed. She took her home,â said Mr. Peggotty, covering his face.
He was more affected by this act of kindness, than I had ever seen him affected by anything since the night she went away. My aunt and I did not attempt to disturb him.
âIt was a little cottage, you may suppose,â he said, presently, âbut she found space for Emâly in it,âher husband was away at sea,âand she kep it secret, and prevailed upon such neighbours as she had (they was not many near) to keep it secret too. Emâly was took bad with fever, and, what is very strange to me is,âmaybe âtis not so strange to scholars,âthe language of that country went out of her head, and she could only speak her own, that no one unnerstood.
She recollects, as if she had dreamed it, that she lay there always a-talking her own tongue, always believing as the old boat was round the next pint in the bay, and begging and imploring of âem to send theer and tell how she was dying, and bring back a message of forgiveness, if it was onây a wured. Aâmost the whole time, she thowt,ânow, that him as I made mention on just now was lurking for her unnerneath the winder; now that him as had brought her to this was in the room,âand cried to the good young woman not to give her up, and knowâd, at the same time, that she couldnât unnerstand, and dreaded that she must be took away.
Likewise the fire was afore her eyes, and the roarings in her ears; and theer was no today, nor yesterday, nor yet tomorrow; but everything in her life as ever had been, or as ever could be, and everything as never had been, and as never could be, was a crowding on her all at once, and nothing clear nor welcome, and yet she sang and laughed about it! How long this lasted, I doenât know; but then theer come a sleep; and in that sleep, from being a many times stronger than her own self, she fell into the weakness of the littlest child.â
Here he stopped, as if for relief from the terrors of his own description. After being silent for a few moments, he pursued his story.
âIt was a pleasant arternoon when she awoke; and so quiet, that there warnât a sound but the rippling of that blue sea without a tide, upon the shore. It was her belief, at first, that she was at home upon a Sunday morning; but the vine leaves as she see at the winder, and the hills beyond, warnât home, and contradicted of her. Then, come in her friend to watch alongside of her bed; and then she knowâd as the old boat warnât round that next pint in the bay no more, but was fur off; and knowâd where she was, and why; and broke out a-crying on that good young womanâs bosom, wheer I hope her baby is a-lying now, a-cheering of her with its pretty eyes!â
He could not speak of this good friend of Emilyâs without a flow of tears. It was in vain to try. He broke down again, endeavouring to bless her!
âThat done my Emâly good,â he resumed, after such emotion as I could not behold without sharing in; and as to my aunt, she wept with all her heart; âthat done Emâly good, and she begun to mend. But, the language of that country was quite gone from her, and she was forced to make signs. So she went on, getting better from day to day, slow, but sure, and trying to learn the names of common thingsânames as she seemed never to have heerd in all her lifeâtill one evening come, when she was a-setting at her window, looking at a little girl at play upon the beach.
And of a sudden this child held out her hand, and said, what would be in English, âFishermanâs daughter, hereâs a shell!ââfor you are to unnerstand that they used at first to call her âPretty ladyâ, as the general way in that country is, and that she had taught âem to call her âFishermanâs daughterâ instead. The child says of a sudden, âFishermanâs daughter, hereâs a shell!â Then Emâly unnerstands her; and she answers, bursting out a-crying; and it all comes back!
âWhen Emâly got strong again,â said Mr. Peggotty, after another short interval of silence, âshe cast about to leave that good young creetur, and get to her own country. The husband was come home, then; and the two together put her aboard a small trader bound to Leghorn, and from that to France. She had a little money, but it was less than little as they would take for all they done. Iâm aâmost glad on it, though they was so poor! What they done, is laid up wheer neither moth or rust doth corrupt, and wheer thieves do not break through nor steal. Masâr Davy, itâll outlast all the treasure in the wureld.
âEmâly got to France, and took service to wait on travelling ladies at a inn in the port. Theer, theer come, one day, that snake. âLet him never come nigh me. I doenât know what hurt I might do him!âSoon as she see him, without him seeing her, all her fear and wildness returned upon her, and she fled afore the very breath he drawâd. She come to England, and was set ashore at Dover.
âI doenât know,â said Mr. Peggotty, âfor sure, when her âart begun to fail her; but all the way to England she had thowt to come to her dear home. Soon as she got to England she turned her face towârds it. But, fear of not being forgiv, fear of being pinted at, fear of some of us being dead along of her, fear of many things, turned her from it, kiender by force, upon the road: âUncle, uncle,â she says to me, âthe fear of not being worthy to do what my torn and bleeding breast so longed to do, was the most frightâning fear of all! I turned back, when my âart was full of prayers that I might crawl to the old door-step, in the night, kiss it, lay my wicked face upon it, and theer be found dead in the morning.â
âShe come,â said Mr. Peggotty, dropping his voice to an awe-stricken whisper, âto London. Sheâas had never seen it in her lifeâaloneâwithout a pennyâyoungâso prettyâcome to London. Aâmost the moment as she lighted heer, all so desolate, she found (as she believed) a friend; a decent woman as spoke to her about the needle-work as she had been brought up to do, about finding plenty of it fur her, about a lodging fur the night, and making secret inquiration concerning of me and all at home, tomorrow. When my child,â he said aloud, and with an energy of gratitude that shook him from head to foot, âstood upon the brink of more than I can say or think onâMartha, trew to her promise, saved her.â
I could not repress a cry of joy.
âMasâr Davy!â said he, gripping my hand in that strong hand of his, âit was you as first made mention of her to me. I thankee, sir! She was arnest. She had knowâd of her bitter knowledge wheer to watch and what to do. She had done it. And the Lord was above all! She come, white and hurried, upon Emâly in her sleep. She says to her, âRise up from worse than death, and come with me!â Them belonging to the house would have stopped her, but they might as soon have stopped the sea.
âStand away from me,â she says, âI am a ghost that calls her from beside her open grave!â She told Emâly she had seen me, and knowâd I loved her, and forgive her. She wrapped her, hasty, in her clothes. She took her, faint and trembling, on her arm. She heeded no more what they said, than if she had had no ears. She walked among âem with my child, minding only her; and brought her safe out, in the dead of the night, from that black pit of ruin!
âShe attended on Emâly,â said Mr. Peggotty, who had released my hand, and put his own hand on his heaving chest; âshe attended to my Emâly, lying wearied out, and wandering betwixt whiles, till late next day. Then she went in search of me; then in search of you, Masâr Davy. She didnât tell Emâly what she come out fur, lest her âart should fail, and she should think of hiding of herself. How the cruel lady knowâd of her being theer, I canât say. Whether him as I have spoke so much of, chanced to see âem going theer, or whether (which is most like, to my thinking) he had heerd it from the woman, I doenât greatly ask myself. My niece is found.
âAll night long,â said Mr. Peggotty, âwe have been together, Emâly and me. âTis little (considering the time) as she has said, in wureds, through them broken-hearted tears; âtis less as I have seen of her dear face, as growâd into a womanâs at my hearth. But, all night long, her arms has been about my neck; and her head has laid heer; and we knows full well, as we can put our trust in one another, ever more.â
He ceased to speak, and his hand upon the table rested there in perfect repose, with a resolution in it that might have conquered lions.
âIt was a gleam of light upon me, Trot,â said my aunt, drying her eyes, âwhen I formed the resolution of being godmother to your sister Betsey Trotwood, who disappointed me; but, next to that, hardly anything would have given me greater pleasure, than to be godmother to that good young creatureâs baby!â
Mr. Peggotty nodded his understanding of my auntâs feelings, but could not trust himself with any verbal reference to the subject of her commendation. We all remained silent, and occupied with our own reflections (my aunt drying her eyes, and now sobbing convulsively, and now laughing and calling herself a fool); until I spoke.
âYou have quite made up your mind,â said I to Mr. Peggotty, âas to the future, good friend? I need scarcely ask you.â
âQuite, Masâr Davy,â he returned; âand told Emâly. Theerâs mighty countries, fur from heer. Our future life lays over the sea.â
âThey will emigrate together, aunt,â said I.
âYes!â said Mr. Peggotty, with a hopeful smile. âNo one canât reproach my darling in Australia. We will begin a new life over theer!â
I asked him if he yet proposed to himself any time for going away.
âI was down at the Docks early this morning, sir,â he returned, âto get information concerning of them ships. In about six weeks or two months from now, thereâll be one sailingâI see her this morningâwent aboardâand we shall take our passage in her.â
âQuite alone?â I asked.
âAye, Masâr Davy!â he returned. âMy sister, you see, sheâs that fond of you and yourn, and that accustomed to think onây of her own country, that it wouldnât be hardly fair to let her go. Besides which, theerâs one she has in charge, Masâr Davy, as doenât ought to be forgot.â
âPoor Ham!â said I.
âMy good sister takes care of his house, you see, maâam, and he takes kindly to her,â Mr. Peggotty explained for my auntâs better information. âHeâll set and talk to her, with a calm spirit, wen itâs like he couldnât bring himself to open his lips to another. Poor fellow!â said Mr. Peggotty, shaking his head, âtheerâs not so much left him, that he could spare the little as he has!â
âAnd Mrs. Gummidge?â said I.
âWell, Iâve had a mort of consideration, I do tell you,â returned Mr. Peggotty, with a perplexed look which gradually cleared as he went on, âconcerning of Missis Gummidge. You see, wen Missis Gummidge falls a-thinking of the old âun, she anât what you may call good company. Betwixt you and me, Masâr Davyâand you, maâamâwen Mrs. Gummidge takes to wimicking,ââour old country word for crying,ââsheâs liable to be considered to be, by them as didnât know the old âun, peevish-like. Now I DID know the old âun,â said Mr. Peggotty, âand I knowâd his merits, so I unnerstanâ her; but âtanât entirely so, you see, with othersânatârally canât be!â
My aunt and I both acquiesced.
âWheerby,â said Mr. Peggotty, âmy sister mightâI doenât say she would, but mightâfind Missis Gummidge give her a leetle trouble now-and-again. Theerfur âtanât my intentions to moor Missis Gummidge âlong with them, but to find a Beeinâ fur her wheer she can fisherate for herself.â (A Beeinâ signifies, in that dialect, a home, and to fisherate is to provide.) âFur which purpose,â said Mr. Peggotty, âI means to make her a âlowance afore I go, asâll leave her pretty comfortâble. Sheâs the faithfullest of creeturs. âTanât to be expected, of course, at her time of life, and being lone and lorn, as the good old Mawther is to be knocked about aboardship, and in the woods and wilds of a new and fur-away country. So thatâs what Iâm a-going to do with her.â
He forgot nobody. He thought of everybodyâs claims and strivings, but his own.
âEmâly,â he continued, âwill keep along with meâpoor child, sheâs sore in need of peace and rest!âuntil such time as we goes upon our voyage. Sheâll work at them clothes, as must be made; and I hope her troubles will begin to seem longer ago than they was, wen she finds herself once more by her rough but loving uncle.â
My aunt nodded confirmation of this hope, and imparted great satisfaction to Mr. Peggotty.
âTheerâs one thing furder, Masâr Davy,â said he, putting his hand in his breast-pocket, and gravely taking out the little paper bundle I had seen before, which he unrolled on the table. âTheerâs these here banknotesâfifty pound, and ten. To them I wish to add the money as she come away with. Iâve asked her about that (but not saying why), and have added of it up. I anât a scholar. Would you be so kind as see how âtis?â
He handed me, apologetically for his scholarship, a piece of paper, and observed me while I looked it over. It was quite right.
âThankee, sir,â he said, taking it back. âThis money, if you doenât see objections, Masâr Davy, I shall put up jest afore I go, in a cover directed to him; and put that up in another, directed to his mother. I shall tell her, in no more wureds than I speak to you, what itâs the price on; and that Iâm gone, and past receiving of it back.â
I told him that I thought it would be right to do soâthat I was thoroughly convinced it would be, since he felt it to be right.
âI said that theer was onây one thing furder,â he proceeded with a grave smile, when he had made up his little bundle again, and put it in his pocket; âbut theer was two. I warnât sure in my mind, wen I come out this morning, as I could go and break to Ham, of my own self, what had so thankfully happened. So I writ a letter while I was out, and put it in the post-office, telling of âem how all was as âtis; and that I should come down tomorrow to unload my mind of what little needs a-doing of down theer, and, most-like, take my farewell leave of Yarmouth.â
âAnd do you wish me to go with you?â said I, seeing that he left something unsaid.
âIf you could do me that kind favour, Masâr Davy,â he replied. âI know the sight on you would cheer âem up a bit.â
My little Dora being in good spirits, and very desirous that I should goâas I found on talking it over with herâI readily pledged myself to accompany him in accordance with his wish. Next morning, consequently, we were on the Yarmouth coach, and again travelling over the old ground.
As we passed along the familiar street at nightâMr. Peggotty, in despite of all my remonstrances, carrying my bagâI glanced into Omer and Joramâs shop, and saw my old friend Mr. Omer there, smoking his pipe. I felt reluctant to be present, when Mr. Peggotty first met his sister and Ham; and made Mr. Omer my excuse for lingering behind.
âHow is Mr. Omer, after this long time?â said I, going in.
He fanned away the smoke of his pipe, that he might get a better view of me, and soon recognized me with great delight.
âI should get up, sir, to acknowledge such an honour as this visit,â said he, âonly my limbs are rather out of sorts, and I am wheeled about. With the exception of my limbs and my breath, howsoever, I am as hearty as a man can be, Iâm thankful to say.â
I congratulated him on his contented looks and his good spirits, and saw, now, that his easy-chair went on wheels.
âItâs an ingenious thing, ainât it?â he inquired, following the direction of my glance, and polishing the elbow with his arm. âIt runs as light as a feather, and tracks as true as a mail-coach. Bless you, my little Minnieâmy grand-daughter you know, Minnieâs childâputs her little strength against the back, gives it a shove, and away we go, as clever and merry as ever you see anything! And I tell you whatâitâs a most uncommon chair to smoke a pipe in.â
I never saw such a good old fellow to make the best of a thing, and find out the enjoyment of it, as Mr. Omer. He was as radiant, as if his chair, his asthma, and the failure of his limbs, were the various branches of a great invention for enhancing the luxury of a pipe.
âI see more of the world, I can assure you,â said Mr. Omer, âin this chair, than ever I see out of it. Youâd be surprised at the number of people that looks in of a day to have a chat. You really would! Thereâs twice as much in the newspaper, since Iâve taken to this chair, as there used to be. As to general reading, dear me, what a lot of it I do get through! Thatâs what I feel so strong, you know! If it had been my eyes, what should I have done? If it had been my ears, what should I have done? Being my limbs, what does it signify? Why, my limbs only made my breath shorter when I used âem. And now, if I want to go out into the street or down to the sands, Iâve only got to call Dick, Joramâs youngest âprentice, and away I go in my own carriage, like the Lord Mayor of London.â
He half suffocated himself with laughing here.
âLord bless you!â said Mr. Omer, resuming his pipe, âa man must take the fat with the lean; thatâs what he must make up his mind to, in this life. Joram does a fine business. Ex-cellent business!â
âI am very glad to hear it,â said I.
âI knew you would be,â said Mr. Omer. âAnd Joram and Minnie are like Valentines. What more can a man expect? Whatâs his limbs to that!â
His supreme contempt for his own limbs, as he sat smoking, was one of the pleasantest oddities I have ever encountered.
âAnd since Iâve took to general reading, youâve took to general writing, eh, sir?â said Mr. Omer, surveying me admiringly. âWhat a lovely work that was of yours! What expressions in it! I read it every wordâevery word. And as to feeling sleepy! Not at all!â
I laughingly expressed my satisfaction, but I must confess that I thought this association of ideas significant.
âI give you my word and honour, sir,â said Mr. Omer, âthat when I lay that book upon the table, and look at it outside; compact in three separate and indiwidual wollumesâone, two, three; I am as proud as Punch to think that I once had the honour of being connected with your family. And dear me, itâs a long time ago, now, ainât it? Over at Blunderstone. With a pretty little party laid along with the other party. And you quite a small party then, yourself. Dear, dear!â
I changed the subject by referring to Emily. After assuring him that I did not forget how interested he had always been in her, and how kindly he had always treated her, I gave him a general account of her restoration to her uncle by the aid of Martha; which I knew would please the old man. He listened with the utmost attention, and said, feelingly, when I had done:
âI am rejoiced at it, sir! Itâs the best news I have heard for many a day. Dear, dear, dear! And whatâs going to be undertook for that unfortunate young woman, Martha, now?â
âYou touch a point that my thoughts have been dwelling on since yesterday,â said I, âbut on which I can give you no information yet, Mr. Omer. Mr. Peggotty has not alluded to it, and I have a delicacy in doing so. I am sure he has not forgotten it. He forgets nothing that is disinterested and good.â
âBecause you know,â said Mr. Omer, taking himself up, where he had left off, âwhatever is done, I should wish to be a member of. Put me down for anything you may consider right, and let me know. I never could think the girl all bad, and I am glad to find sheâs not. So will my daughter Minnie be. Young women are contradictory creatures in some thingsâher mother was just the same as herâbut their hearts are soft and kind. Itâs all show with Minnie, about Martha.
Why she should consider it necessary to make any show, I donât undertake to tell you. But itâs all show, bless you. Sheâd do her any kindness in private. So, put me down for whatever you may consider right, will you be so good? and drop me a line where to forward it. Dear me!â said Mr. Omer, âwhen a man is drawing on to a time of life, where the two ends of life meet; when he finds himself, however hearty he is, being wheeled about for the second time, in a speeches of go-cart; he should be over-rejoiced to do a kindness if he can. He wants plenty. And I donât speak of myself, particular,â said Mr. Omer, âbecause, sir, the way I look at it is, that we are all drawing on to the bottom of the hill, whatever age we are, on account of time never standing still for a single moment. So let us always do a kindness, and be over-rejoiced. To be sure!â
He knocked the ashes out of his pipe, and put it on a ledge in the back of his chair, expressly made for its reception.
âThereâs Emâlyâs cousin, him that she was to have been married to,â said Mr. Omer, rubbing his hands feebly, âas fine a fellow as there is in Yarmouth! Heâll come and talk or read to me, in the evening, for an hour together sometimes. Thatâs a kindness, I should call it! All his lifeâs a kindness.â
âI am going to see him now,â said I.
âAre you?â said Mr. Omer. âTell him I was hearty, and sent my respects. Minnie and Joramâs at a ball. They would be as proud to see you as I am, if they was at home. Minnie wonât hardly go out at all, you see, âon account of fatherâ, as she says. So I swore tonight, that if she didnât go, Iâd go to bed at six. In consequence of which,â Mr. Omer shook himself and his chair with laughter at the success of his device, âshe and Joramâs at a ball.â
I shook hands with him, and wished him good night.
âHalf a minute, sir,â said Mr. Omer. âIf you was to go without seeing my little elephant, youâd lose the best of sights. You never see such a sight! Minnie!â A musical little voice answered, from somewhere upstairs, âI am coming, grandfather!â and a pretty little girl with long, flaxen, curling hair, soon came running into the shop.
âThis is my little elephant, sir,â said Mr. Omer, fondling the child. âSiamese breed, sir. Now, little elephant!â
The little elephant set the door of the parlour open, enabling me to see that, in these latter days, it was converted into a bedroom for Mr. Omer who could not be easily conveyed upstairs; and then hid her pretty forehead, and tumbled her long hair, against the back of Mr. Omerâs chair.
âThe elephant butts, you know, sir,â said Mr. Omer, winking, âwhen he goes at a object. Once, elephant. Twice. Three times!â
At this signal, the little elephant, with a dexterity that was next to marvellous in so small an animal, whisked the chair round with Mr. Omer in it, and rattled it off, pell-mell, into the parlour, without touching the door-post: Mr. Omer indescribably enjoying the performance, and looking back at me on the road as if it were the triumphant issue of his lifeâs exertions.
After a stroll about the town I went to Hamâs house. Peggotty had now removed here for good; and had let her own house to the successor of Mr. Barkis in the carrying business, who had paid her very well for the good-will, cart, and horse. I believe the very same slow horse that Mr. Barkis drove was still at work.
I found them in the neat kitchen, accompanied by Mrs. Gummidge, who had been fetched from the old boat by Mr. Peggotty himself. I doubt if she could have been induced to desert her post, by anyone else. He had evidently told them all. Both Peggotty and Mrs. Gummidge had their aprons to their eyes, and Ham had just stepped out âto take a turn on the beachâ. He presently came home, very glad to see me; and I hope they were all the better for my being there. We spoke, with some approach to cheerfulness, of Mr. Peggottyâs growing rich in a new country, and of the wonders he would describe in his letters. We said nothing of Emily by name, but distantly referred to her more than once. Ham was the serenest of the party.
But, Peggotty told me, when she lighted me to a little chamber where the Crocodile book was lying ready for me on the table, that he always was the same. She believed (she told me, crying) that he was broken-hearted; though he was as full of courage as of sweetness, and worked harder and better than any boat-builder in any yard in all that part. There were times, she said, of an evening, when he talked of their old life in the boat-house; and then he mentioned Emily as a child. But, he never mentioned her as a woman.
I thought I had read in his face that he would like to speak to me alone. I therefore resolved to put myself in his way next evening, as he came home from his work. Having settled this with myself, I fell asleep. That night, for the first time in all those many nights, the candle was taken out of the window, Mr. Peggotty swung in his old hammock in the old boat, and the wind murmured with the old sound round his head.
All next day, he was occupied in disposing of his fishing-boat and tackle; in packing up, and sending to London by waggon, such of his little domestic possessions as he thought would be useful to him; and in parting with the rest, or bestowing them on Mrs. Gummidge. She was with him all day. As I had a sorrowful wish to see the old place once more, before it was locked up, I engaged to meet them there in the evening. But I so arranged it, as that I should meet Ham first.
It was easy to come in his way, as I knew where he worked. I met him at a retired part of the sands, which I knew he would cross, and turned back with him, that he might have leisure to speak to me if he really wished. I had not mistaken the expression of his face. We had walked but a little way together, when he said, without looking at me:
âMasâr Davy, have you seen her?â
âOnly for a moment, when she was in a swoon,â I softly answered.
We walked a little farther, and he said:
âMasâr Davy, shall you see her, dâye think?â
âIt would be too painful to her, perhaps,â said I.
âI have thowt of that,â he replied. âSo âtwould, sir, so âtwould.â
âBut, Ham,â said I, gently, âif there is anything that I could write to her, for you, in case I could not tell it; if there is anything you would wish to make known to her through me; I should consider it a sacred trust.â
âI am sure onât. I thankee, sir, most kind! I think theer is something I could wish said or wrote.â
âWhat is it?â
We walked a little farther in silence, and then he spoke.
ââTanât that I forgive her. âTanât that so much. âTis more as I beg of her to forgive me, for having pressed my affections upon her. Odd times, I think that if I hadnât had her promise fur to marry me, sir, she was that trustful of me, in a friendly way, that sheâd have told me what was struggling in her mind, and would have counselled with me, and I might have saved her.â
I pressed his hand. âIs that all?â âTheerâs yet a something else,â he returned, âif I can say it, Masâr Davy.â
We walked on, farther than we had walked yet, before he spoke again. He was not crying when he made the pauses I shall express by lines. He was merely collecting himself to speak very plainly.
âI loved herâand I love the memâry of herâtoo deepâto be able to lead her to believe of my own self as Iâm a happy man. I could only be happyâby forgetting of herâand Iâm afeerd I couldnât hardly bear as she should be told I done that. But if you, being so full of learning, Masâr Davy, could think of anything to say as might bring her to believe I wasnât greatly hurt: still loving of her, and mourning for her: anything as might bring her to believe as I was not tired of my life, and yet was hoping fur to see her without blame, wheer the wicked cease from troubling and the weary are at restâanything as would ease her sorrowful mind, and yet not make her think as I could ever marry, or as âtwas possible that anyone could ever be to me what she wasâI should ask of you to say thatâwith my prayers for herâthat was so dear.â
I pressed his manly hand again, and told him I would charge myself to do this as well as I could.
âI thankee, sir,â he answered. ââTwas kind of you to meet me. âTwas kind of you to bear him company down. Masâr Davy, I unnerstanâ very well, though my aunt will come to Lonâon afore they sail, and theyâll unite once more, that I am not like to see him agen. I fare to feel sure onât. We doenât say so, but so âtwill be, and better so. The last you see on himâthe very lastâwill you give him the lovingest duty and thanks of the orphan, as he was ever more than a father to?â
This I also promised, faithfully.
âI thankee agen, sir,â he said, heartily shaking hands. âI know wheer youâre a-going. Good-bye!â
With a slight wave of his hand, as though to explain to me that he could not enter the old place, he turned away. As I looked after his figure, crossing the waste in the moonlight, I saw him turn his face towards a strip of silvery light upon the sea, and pass on, looking at it, until he was a shadow in the distance.
The door of the boat-house stood open when I approached; and, on entering, I found it emptied of all its furniture, saving one of the old lockers, on which Mrs. Gummidge, with a basket on her knee, was seated, looking at Mr. Peggotty. He leaned his elbow on the rough chimney-piece, and gazed upon a few expiring embers in the grate; but he raised his head, hopefully, on my coming in, and spoke in a cheery manner.
âCome, according to promise, to bid farewell to ât, eh, Masâr Davy?â he said, taking up the candle. âBare enough, now, anât it?â âIndeed you have made good use of the time,â said I.
âWhy, we have not been idle, sir. Missis Gummidge has worked like aâI doenât know what Missis Gummidge anât worked like,â said Mr. Peggotty, looking at her, at a loss for a sufficiently approving simile.
Mrs. Gummidge, leaning on her basket, made no observation.
âTheerâs the very locker that you used to sit on, âlong with Emâly!â said Mr. Peggotty, in a whisper. âIâm a-going to carry it away with me, last of all. And heerâs your old little bedroom, see, Masâr Davy! Aâmost as bleak tonight, as âart could wish!â
In truth, the wind, though it was low, had a solemn sound, and crept around the deserted house with a whispered wailing that was very mournful. Everything was gone, down to the little mirror with the oyster-shell frame. I thought of myself, lying here, when that first great change was being wrought at home. I thought of the blue-eyed child who had enchanted me. I thought of Steerforth: and a foolish, fearful fancy came upon me of his being near at hand, and liable to be met at any turn.
ââTis like to be long,â said Mr. Peggotty, in a low voice, âafore the boat finds new tenants. They look upon ât, down heer, as being unfortunate now!â
âDoes it belong to anybody in the neighbourhood?â I asked.
âTo a mast-maker up town,â said Mr. Peggotty. âIâm a-going to give the key to him tonight.â
We looked into the other little room, and came back to Mrs. Gummidge, sitting on the locker, whom Mr. Peggotty, putting the light on the chimney-piece, requested to rise, that he might carry it outside the door before extinguishing the candle.
âDanâl,â said Mrs. Gummidge, suddenly deserting her basket, and clinging to his arm âmy dear Danâl, the parting words I speak in this house is, I mustnât be left behind. Doenât ye think of leaving me behind, Danâl! Oh, doenât ye ever do it!â
Mr. Peggotty, taken aback, looked from Mrs. Gummidge to me, and from me to Mrs. Gummidge, as if he had been awakened from a sleep.
âDoenât ye, dearest Danâl, doenât ye!â cried Mrs. Gummidge, fervently. âTake me âlong with you, Danâl, take me âlong with you and Emâly! Iâll be your servant, constant and trew. If thereâs slaves in them parts where youâre a-going, Iâll be bound to you for one, and happy, but doenât ye leave me behind, Danâl, thatâs a deary dear!â
âMy good soul,â said Mr. Peggotty, shaking his head, âyou doenât know what a long voyage, and what a hard life âtis!â âYes, I do, Danâl! I can guess!â cried Mrs. Gummidge. âBut my parting words under this roof is, I shall go into the house and die, if I am not took. I can dig, Danâl. I can work. I can live hard. I can be loving and patient nowâmore than you think, Danâl, if youâll onây try me. I wouldnât touch the âlowance, not if I was dying of want, Danâl Peggotty; but Iâll go with you and Emâly, if youâll onây let me, to the worldâs end! I know how âtis; I know you think that I am lone and lorn; but, deary love, âtanât so no more! I ainât sat here, so long, a-watching, and a-thinking of your trials, without some good being done me. Masâr Davy, speak to him for me! I knows his ways, and Emâlyâs, and I knows their sorrows, and can be a comfort to âem, some odd times, and labour for âem allus! Danâl, deary Danâl, let me go âlong with you!â
And Mrs. Gummidge took his hand, and kissed it with a homely pathos and affection, in a homely rapture of devotion and gratitude, that he well deserved.
We brought the locker out, extinguished the candle, fastened the door on the outside, and left the old boat close shut up, a dark speck in the cloudy night. Next day, when we were returning to London outside the coach, Mrs. Gummidge and her basket were on the seat behind, and Mrs. Gummidge was happy.
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