Today marks the end of the eighth year of my professional career. It has been a trying one with many ups and downs, and a lot of silence. Feels like the right time to spend introspecting and think if I have been able to contribute something of value in the past years. So hey, maybe worth writing about.
Credits —Whoever owns the rights to Baasha. Feeding into the Kaala frenzy.
Disclaimer — Highly opinionated self-critique of my past, present, and future professional career.
That I somehow ended up having. Stumbled on it mostly.
Of course, there is bad stuff.
Thankfully, I have started addressing a couple of those bad stuff already, based on repeated feedback. But there is a long way to go.
Spending some more time, peering a little closer, I asked myself - Is that all the good stuff? Anything worthy of mention? Come on, 8 years of it. I dove deep into the past, not including the last couple of years.
Source — Giphy
The most important lesson that came out — Overcome this weird insecurity/“being humble”.
It became clear that it doesn’t matter if you have —
Unless you talk about it and share it around, you will end up trying to convince the world that you have what it takes, instead of spending the time actually doing “it”.
This matters because it increases your opportunities to do amazing things. Also because, if you don’t, someone else will.
It is a great way for positive reinforcement and opening oneself to external critique.
If I had done a good job of that, the above list would have been in “the good stuff” section. The list is not the most awesome one out there, nor a complete one, but it is definitely worth it. Here is to breaking the cycle.
Enough narcissism for 8 years. Time for some quotes from real conversations. These conversations have literally been a few turning points in my life, slightly paraphrased from memory. Hope it will help some others on the internet someday.
“Don’t do your company any favors. You are not doing yourself any favors by doing that. It is the right thing to expect things from your colleagues.” —
When I started whining, after demo-ing something, that I considered buggy, to customers, and didn’t bring it up as workable feedback beforehand.
“Share knowledge. As much as you can. Knowledge grows by sharing, it never diminishes in value. When you dispense it, you gain their trust as an advisor.” —
When I was pissed off at a client wanting to know everything for free.
“We are selling a vision, we are not done building everything out. If we already had everything, it won’t be a startup. It is always important to know the difference. You don’t have to feel guilty about it, as a startup, you have always been selling the vision, nothing more.” —
When I was annoyed about selling features we hadn’t built yet.
“Having an active outside-work life is most important. At the end of the day, that’s where you are going to go back to.” —
When I needed to take a break but didn’t know it.
“Long-term solutions are pointless if you are not able to survive the next week” —
When the purist in me needed to be shut down and was taught a lesson in reality.
“Don’t be perfect. It leaves no room for improvement that comes over time.” —
When I was irritated at not being able to finish everything I intended to. I think of it like letting food marinate for a while before cooking it. If cooked too fast, won’t have the same quality.
Thankful to all for taking the time to have those conversations with me. Thankful to those who had more patience than me with me.
I don’t think the who-said-it is important in this post, only the content.
Comparing things at the crack of this decade to now
Then — I was fresh and immature, coming off a laid-back college life.
Now — I can barely wait for an early start on a Monday morning.
P.S: Hey, Thank you for coming this far. We at Swym are actively looking to work with cool people like you if interested :)!
P.P.S: After writing all of it I realized, I could have made it sound like “8 things…”. Ah well *shrugs*.